Dont stop

i cant stop my step.i thinking about him as long as i stop.
i have to get a lot of things to do to stop thinking about him.
i work whole day.when i was walking without anyone,i have to listen music.but still,many songs reminds me of him.he's good at music.and i love music.sadly,seems that is the only damn true thing i've knew about him.
they told me he'd found someone.they told me i should be happy for him.
but HOW! how can i happy for him?? tell me how~ he's my everything not theirs ~ how can they said like that..
nobody know.... nobody know how it hurt in my deepest heart.and i cant tell .... all they would said is tell me to give up on him...
oh,noooo,noo~~~ not XJJ,not LSX,not R..,not B...,not A... NO,not them!!
they are not him.so i cant do that.

i smile to everyone i meet everyday.i play trick with my friends and classmates as usual,i listen the girls' love stories ,i laugh on the floor crazily in our dorm,i comfort every broken-heart if only they need,i take pics as long as i found sth amazing or emotional or...just made me get some feelings.
i am like just a machine and moving on everyday withour feelings.i wake up,i go to class,i do the works,i walk in our campus,i search in the library,i stand in the crowd,i enjoy in the rain,i look at the sky ,i travel around the city,i hang out with someone,i run by the sea,i sit in the bus,i dream to got a happy ending,whatever i do ,i .. i am always alone .....
everything's change,everything's lost its funny for me. And i so felicitate that nobody knows.
so,i'll just... keep on laughing,laughing,and laughing.....



hey,do you know waiting is such a tough thing?
im so sorry im not that strong.....