writing in the Christmas Eve

tonight is X'mas Eve,but all of us girls are staying in dorm and do the normal things as usual.
i feel nothing about X'mas.maybe im not a Christian,or some other reasons that i dont wanna accept.
but thank you all the same .i who send the regards to me from different countries.
its you,made the boring day to be a little bit special day for me:)
yeah,its not only have lovers around you,but also have many many kind sweet friends care about you all the time.
i even didnt thought tonight i will write anything special for this festival eve.see,i was wrong.ppl always know what will happen next and what will change their mind soon.
i guess maybe becuz of Joe's question.
"will not change her mind" about wot
i was like that,about,if i fall in love with someone,i hope i neednt to change my mind again and again,i hope i could walk into the sunset with the one. but you know,its hard~
he was like,yes,and even when you think you have it right,you never know. life is diffivult
then,BENG,i started to think about it ,and over and over....
when i was taking my shower just now,i got lots of feeling about this eve,this question,this ......wot i dont wanna accept.

finally, i found an apple .then cut it into some pieces and shared with my girls.
it was sweet.

its the ending for tonight
a sweet but little piece of apple.


im worried about @,seriously
i have to figure it out .i have to buy the internetional card to make sure everything is going well there.i do ,i really do wish he neednt got any hurt.
then,its the greatest gift for me in X'mas.
yeah,
yeah....
i love him,i really do
bless him and his boy,plz



P.S.:
i got an idea,i will make some cards or girts for my girls in the next and last X'mas when we together.